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:: Sunday, October 26, 2003 ::
wow, so haven't posted in a while.
here's the thing.
my sister is a bitc.....
no, it would be completely and utterly mean to complete that statement, but you guys get the idea.
(SHE PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!)
:: Pearl 10/26/2003 [+] ::
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:: Monday, July 28, 2003 ::
:: Pearl 7/28/2003 [+] ::
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:: Wednesday, June 11, 2003 ::
DEPRESSION WATCH 2003
summer SUX!! sucksucksucksucksucksucksucks.
mom is going through a crisis. again. but it's worse this time, cause she has gotten to the point where she's neglected treatment and it's seriously caught up with her.
and it's like i'm her therapist! you can't have your daughter listen to your most detailed depressing thoughts, it can scar a child for life! so finally, my dad and i are
fed up so all of us are leaving for washington this friday for three weeks so she can see this cognitive therapist in seattle.
so things are looking up cause i've spent all this time and energy with my family during this hard time (and i haven't talked to you guys for a while!!) and now i'm finally going to do something fun cause ali's gonna be in town and all my old friends.
i'm sorry, i'm gonna miss your b-day tiffany! i'll call you before i go
e-mail me you guys! i need my friends right now!
:: Pearl 6/11/2003 [+] ::
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See what drug you are.
oh so does being drug-free mean i'm as boring as a fig newton???
:: Pearl 6/11/2003 [+] ::
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:: Saturday, April 19, 2003 ::
i saw the pianist yesterday......wow, what a heavy movie......that's all i can say about it over internet, but it lead to an interesting conversation about the holocaust w/ my parents.
:: Pearl 4/19/2003 [+] ::
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:: Friday, March 28, 2003 ::
i've realized the truth, the sad, pitiful truth....
i have social anxiety.
it's not clinically proven or whatever, but i must be more than just shy.
like, do "just shy" people ever get nervous and have to keep from hyperventilating when they enter a public place (with a lot of people, without their friends)?
there are better examples i could give, but you guys would probably think they're no big deal.
this is sad.
i can even remember when i first got my "shyness". i was an outgoing, charming, attention craving baby. then, on my dad's birthday, when i was like 5 or something, i was going to do a spontaneous little dance during dinner for everyone (who were either family or friends of family). i remember it so clearly. i got up and started twirling, "dancing" as little girls will do, demanding that everyone look at me, and then all of a sudden, i was aware.
aware of all these people looking at me, only me, intently. i had never felt anything like that before, i felt so vulnerable and naked, i started bawling and ran into my dad's astonished arms while everyone started laughing, because just how cute is little pearl whose trying to explain in toddler-tears that the reason she;s so upset is because everyone was looking at her.
:: Pearl 3/28/2003 [+] ::
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:: Thursday, March 27, 2003 ::
dammit! what the hell happened to my links?!
:: Pearl 3/27/2003 [+] ::
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:: Tuesday, February 25, 2003 ::
so now that swim season is over, i don't really have a reason to like swim boy EXCEPT for the fact that he;s on my winterim.
so, i really do have a crush on him, but i would be stupid to expect anything from it. for now, it's kinda like a fun crush, where you don't take stuff too seriously, because i still like lightboy (alot)......
it's wierd w/ swim boy cause i've noticed i have all this opportunities to talk to him, cause all through swim season, his mom would give me rides to practice, so i was always sitting in the backseat w/ him. always.
and now, in order for us to get to winterim, in involves both of us getting a ride with the teacher, so once again, we are in the backseat, alone, together....
on the positive side of this, it has created what i call "flirting" but that just might be me overanalyzing like i usually do.
:: Pearl 2/25/2003 [+] ::
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i hate being the odd one out
with a total only seven people on my winterim, guess who's left w/o partner when the time calls (which is included in every activity).
i'm used to it though, i'm not really left out, and the other people are nice and include me, but i still feel annoyed when i'm reminded
of it.
anyway, winterim is fun for me. how bout you guys?
:: Pearl 2/25/2003 [+] ::
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