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2003-10-26T20:17:00.000-10:00

wow, so haven't posted in a while.

here's the thing.

my sister is a bitc.....
no, it would be completely and utterly mean to complete that statement, but you guys get the idea.

(SHE PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!)

2003-07-28T08:10:00.000-10:00

Green

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2003-06-11T13:44:00.000-10:00

DEPRESSION WATCH 2003

summer SUX!! sucksucksucksucksucksucksucks.
mom is going through a crisis. again. but it's worse this time, cause she has gotten to the point where she's neglected treatment and it's seriously caught up with her.
and it's like i'm her therapist! you can't have your daughter listen to your most detailed depressing thoughts, it can scar a child for life! so finally, my dad and i are
fed up so all of us are leaving for washington this friday for three weeks so she can see this cognitive therapist in seattle.
so things are looking up cause i've spent all this time and energy with my family during this hard time (and i haven't talked to you guys for a while!!) and now i'm finally going to do something fun cause ali's gonna be in town and all my old friends.

i'm sorry, i'm gonna miss your b-day tiffany! i'll call you before i go

e-mail me you guys! i need my friends right now!

2003-06-11T13:30:00.000-10:00

See what drug you are.

oh so does being drug-free mean i'm as boring as a fig newton???

2003-04-19T14:55:00.000-10:00

i saw the pianist yesterday......wow, what a heavy movie......that's all i can say about it over internet, but it lead to an interesting conversation about the holocaust w/ my parents.

2003-03-28T17:55:00.000-10:00

i've realized the truth, the sad, pitiful truth....
i have social anxiety.
it's not clinically proven or whatever, but i must be more than just shy.
like, do "just shy" people ever get nervous and have to keep from hyperventilating when they enter a public place (with a lot of people, without their friends)?
there are better examples i could give, but you guys would probably think they're no big deal.

this is sad.
i can even remember when i first got my "shyness". i was an outgoing, charming, attention craving baby. then, on my dad's birthday, when i was like 5 or something, i was going to do a spontaneous little dance during dinner for everyone (who were either family or friends of family). i remember it so clearly. i got up and started twirling, "dancing" as little girls will do, demanding that everyone look at me, and then all of a sudden, i was aware.

aware of all these people looking at me, only me, intently. i had never felt anything like that before, i felt so vulnerable and naked, i started bawling and ran into my dad's astonished arms while everyone started laughing, because just how cute is little pearl whose trying to explain in toddler-tears that the reason she;s so upset is because everyone was looking at her.

2003-03-27T12:48:00.000-10:00

dammit! what the hell happened to my links?!

2003-02-25T17:08:00.000-10:00

so now that swim season is over, i don't really have a reason to like swim boy EXCEPT for the fact that he;s on my winterim.

so, i really do have a crush on him, but i would be stupid to expect anything from it. for now, it's kinda like a fun crush, where you don't take stuff too seriously, because i still like lightboy (alot)......

it's wierd w/ swim boy cause i've noticed i have all this opportunities to talk to him, cause all through swim season, his mom would give me rides to practice, so i was always sitting in the backseat w/ him. always.

and now, in order for us to get to winterim, in involves both of us getting a ride with the teacher, so once again, we are in the backseat, alone, together....

on the positive side of this, it has created what i call "flirting" but that just might be me overanalyzing like i usually do.

2003-02-25T16:59:00.000-10:00

i hate being the odd one out

with a total only seven people on my winterim, guess who's left w/o partner when the time calls (which is included in every activity).
i'm used to it though, i'm not really left out, and the other people are nice and include me, but i still feel annoyed when i'm reminded
of it.

anyway, winterim is fun for me. how bout you guys?

2003-02-01T17:44:00.000-10:00

that's so sad...those astronauts.
shuttle exploded just sixteen minutes before they were supposed to land.
their poor families....

2003-02-01T11:59:00.000-10:00

jeez, i haven;t posted in a while alot to catch up on....

first off, i'm now an official member of the Seabury Hall VARSITY (ha ha) Swim Team, go me.
(it's surprising, i can actually hold my own in the team, not bad for someone who just started swimming the past summer, no?)

for example;

1.my very first swim meet, on my very first event, i totally embarrass myself! but then make up for it in my next event.
2. second swim meet, i come in 3rd out of 8! can you believe it? THIRD OUT OF EIGHT!!! i'll never get tired of saying that! 5 people were worse than me!
i was in the second heat too, out of three, so i was in the "intermediate" group, so that means there were 3 other girls in the other heat that are also worse than me!
i know, i'm starting to sound stuck up or something, so i won't mention it again.

okay, now here's the really funny part that i can;t reveal;
THE INITIATION! omg, they planned it out so it would be embarrassing to the max! and then the security guards came! that was hilarious!
but the camera didn't work! we went throught all the trouble of running practically naked through ka'ahumanu mall on a friday night packed with local kids ("i'm blinded by the white" what an asshole) and they didn't even get the freakin' thing on film! it's a lot funnier than it sounds, just try not tell anyone, cause they found out somehow that
we were from seabury, and if mr.shmidt knows about it, he's gonna go on that whole lecture/guilt trip double whammy about how when we go out in the community,
we are representing seabury hall, and all bad or good decisions are reflections on what is taught at seabury. bullshit! they just wanna keep seabury's "good" rep.

but omg, i officially cannot stand 4 certain girls on the team! all through out dinner they were having the most judgemental, shallow, idiotic and just plain ridiculus conversation!! you become stupider by just listening to them! they are total, pure preeps! i know i shouldn't stereotype people, but they totally fit the description.

2003-01-04T12:38:00.000-10:00

Ah, a brand new year....
actually a lot happened this past year;

-two ulcered corneas
-one pass out/seizure
-fell in love for first time (or came way too close to it....i hope that never happens again)
-got a new appearance (nose piercing, haircut, contacts)
-starting to become less shy (very good thing!)
-started high school
..............................................................................
geez....time really does go by fast doesn't it?

2003-01-04T12:34:00.000-10:00

how do i change the damn font color?!!!!!

2003-01-04T12:27:00.000-10:00

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2002-12-30T17:03:00.000-10:00

2002-12-30T16:58:00.000-10:00

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2002-12-18T20:45:00.000-10:00

!!damn fucking finals!!

2002-12-18T20:43:00.000-10:00

yay...i got a secret blog! you;ll never guess what it is, heh heh.
it scared the shit outta me when max (random guy) told me he had seen it (i hadn't told anyone about it), but then he got it mixed up with somebody else
so it's all good....

2002-12-12T19:52:00.000-10:00

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2002-12-11T18:49:00.000-10:00

You're earth! You are very motherly and love mankind. You think of mankind as your children and you are very giving and protective. No one should mess with you though, because you can turn mean if someone pisses you off.

What element are you?

2002-12-11T18:42:00.000-10:00

yay! internet is back up! woot woot, as victoria would say....(damn it, i miss you vickie! nothing is as much fun as it was with you here!
thank you for your blog entry for me! i'm really sorry i didn't send you
a birthday present, but up until now, i have been majorly broke. i'll send it soon, promise.)

anyway, i'm fifteen (as of the seventh)! (yay for the sagittariun rabbits!). man, i had so many expectations for myself by the time i was this age, like:
1. i would have a boyfriend
2. i would no longer be shy (i'm working on it)
3. i would have a boyfriend (note the importance)
4. i would be popular (where did that come from?)
5. i would have a band (could still happen, or even better, is Imitation Butter still together?)
6. other stuff i forget, but i'm sure it emphasised:
7. having a boyfriend

sry, i'm not trying to complain, just reminiscing.
why the hell did i want a boyfriend so bad? whatever.

must....update....before...internet....fucking....crashes....again....

2002-10-03T15:22:00.000-10:00

so....long time, no blog....

what has happened?(*the hellish elevator music*)

2002-08-06T12:03:00.000-10:00

i'm back

there i updated my links and blog

happy now shorty?

2002-07-25T12:09:00.000-10:00

so....

I GET TO GO TO WASHINGTON!!
i'm going tomorrow, so good bye everyone, i'll be back on the 1st or 2nd.
just my luck, ali is leaving for camp the day i fly in. :(
if i'm lucky, maybe i could hook up w/ some old classmate. not.

anyway, ariell had her birthday party the other day.
she and her friends were being all bitchy and annoying. victoria was there so that was okay.

by the way, i'm really going to miss you vickie! i'll send something to your new home soon....

2002-07-13T16:02:00.000-10:00

what is this hapa's thing about?

kelsea: call me please

2002-07-13T15:56:00.000-10:00

due to this "aquatic precaution" i could not go surfing w/ tiff as planned.

instead, i got to help my parents prepare for their dinner party.

ah, the time when all hell breaks loose....

my sister is annoying the hell outa me by being a complete and utter suck up (to my parents)

today sux...

i wonder how the dinner party will go...

2002-07-13T15:51:00.000-10:00

so, this is what the neurologist said probably happened (not a quote):

due to hypoglycemia and sleep deprivation, i passed out while playing DDR, hit my head on the platform and
THEN had a "mild impact seizure", due to the strike to the cranium.
so, in other words, i probably do not have epilepsy (yay) BUT i need to take "aquatic precaution" when surfing/swimming
MEANING: i need to have my dad keep watch when i'm in the water, so i don't have a seizure in the surf and die.
this 'aquatic precaution' lasts for a seizure-free six months to a year, and then i can go surfing w/o a parent watchdog.

2002-07-09T17:58:00.000-10:00

well, i've neglected my blog for too long....

what has happened is this:

June 23, hapa's nite....too out of my mind w/ worry to have fun....well, later it was fun cause everyone was just chillin, but whatever

June 24, day after, at maui mall, after lilo & stitch.....watched random breakdancers....played DDR on standard level....*apparently* (i don't remember it) i had a seizure
and passed out....uh-huh.....woke up in hospital w/ a SPLITTING headache....totally confused....nurses attempted to make me understand WHY i was there....didn't understand...friends came in....ashley was crying, i appreciate that....they went away...got a CAT scan and blood test...wheeled to the car and fell asleep.

June 25, @ home, woke up and convinced it was a dream, then realized i was still fully clothed in my yesterday clothes........really bad headache....parents explained what happended....i actually understood that time.... spent rest of day in bed....

next week, i have been going from doctor to doctor....they thought there was a possibility of EPILEPSY *gasp*....
so i had to go to Oahu for a day with my dad to get an EEG (a technician puts a tight cap on your head, covers your face with electrodewhatevers, sit there for a couple of minutes and just 'relax'....then you have to purposely hyperventilate for 3 MINUTES STRAIGHT [have you ever tried that?!] then 'relax' and catch your breath so you don't pass out.....then you close your eyes and get blinded by a strobe light.....then it's over!!)
anyway, then we went to pearlridge center which is AT LEAST TWICE the size of ka'ahumanu mall and has all of my fave stores....then my dad almost got run over by a car...i noticed, there hardly seems to be any whities, and if there is, they're punk or goth (cool!) and then we went home....whew

anyway....

RANDOM OBSERVATION...

when i had the seizure, i hit my head....and that equals A SORE SCAB(!!!) ON THE BACK OF MY HEAD

2002-06-23T12:32:00.000-10:00

so.....went to the mall for Tiff's party on Wed........sooo much fun.....
even though i had fucking bad cramps and threw up.....oh yeah, thanks to everyone for helping me by waiting for me, getting me tylenol etc..
i really appreciate it...i have good friends....saw 'enough'....a kick-ass movie....i recommend it....

i've been seeing alot of look-a-likes of people in my class.....creepy....

tonite is hapa's.....can;t wait.....

sorry tiff...i still need to get you a present....i will as soon as i can,,,

2002-06-18T12:13:00.000-10:00

thanks kelsea.
i talked to my mom,
everything is going to be alright...

2002-06-18T11:22:00.000-10:00

thanks to everyone who called yesterday,
which was no one.

what do i have to do to get some attention?

i seriously think my mom's depression is rubbing off on me...

thanks to ashley, though, for talking to me yesterday, it really helped.
now if only the world would follow your example...

2002-06-18T11:19:00.000-10:00

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2002-06-17T13:38:00.000-10:00

does anyone care?!
could someone just call or something?!
i had a really really crappy day yesterday and i need to talk to someone

everyone always complains that no one cares about them and bla bla bla but could one of my friends just fucking call me and so that i don't have to be in the aforementioned group?

someone?

please?

2002-06-17T13:24:00.000-10:00

sry ppl
i kinda lost it on yesterday's post
i was really pissed off'

could someone talk to me please?!

2002-06-17T13:23:00.000-10:00

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2002-06-15T19:08:00.000-10:00

I GOT IT PIERCED!!

finally!

anyways...

RANDOM RESPONSE...

Kelsea-what i meant about the ***** making up thing was that....hard to explain but_i_thought_you_had_heard_from_someone_else_that_she_said_that_and_didn't_actually_hear_her_say_that_but_i_didn't_know_you_actually_heard_her_cause_you_said_you_heard_it_from_someone_else_but_if you_did_hear i'm sry if you thought i thought that you made it up

whew...that was long...did i confuse you enough?

anyway....

RANDOM THOUGHT...

she actually said that?!!! it's now official: ***** IS A RACIST BITCH!!! (if you wanna see what ***** said about me, read kelsea's blog...)
man, that really pisses me off:
first, some stupidass cop tries to arrest/ticket my mom because she's Asian and now this bitch i've always been nice to is being racist towards me, even though she should have some idea that i'm not Muslim cause everyone knows i'm Indian and a Buddhist, and just because i happened to be sitting next to her on 9/11 while watching the news and she said some stuff and i told her off cause it was stupid and discriminating towards Muslims.

what a biotch...

2002-06-14T12:31:00.000-10:00

RANDOM RESPONSE...

Tiff-i didn't copy kelsea's blog

yeah that's it....

RANDOM DREAM...

the night before last i had this dream that i got my nose pierced (finally!) and then someone was driving me around for shopping (or something) and everywhere i went i saw someone from school who would then stare @ me in awe cause i looked so damn good.

yeah right

2002-06-14T12:13:00.000-10:00

RANDOM THOUGHT...

two ppl (kelsea & prem) have told me that they heard that ***** was being an uberbitch and saying (to my face) a bunch of racist stuff about me being a Muslim and evil and shit (for the record, i am a half-Indian Buddhist).
this confuses me for many reasons:
1. ***** should know i'm not Muslim, after all, we were friends for 2 years...
2. ***** has NEVER said anything that stupidly racist, much less in insult form
3. i'm thinking maybe ***** is being set up
explain: not many ppl like her so spreading a rumor that she's a bigot to a considerably nice, well-liked girl (my rep) would get ppl to hate her even more....i wouldn't put it past most ppl in my grade to not do that....

2002-06-12T11:06:00.000-10:00

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2002-06-12T10:52:00.000-10:00

i went to hapa's the other night (sunday)...it was so much fun...no details as usual...got to spike my hair...nothing really specific happened but according to kelsea some cute guy was going to ask me to dance...that would have been cool....after hapa's we spent the night @ jenta's kihei house...lotsa fun there too...i got to talk to eunice, who i don't really know very well but she seems cool...

rachael's party yesterday....also fun...i didn;t really socialize, just swam in the ocean w/ vickie.ashley and jenta...one nameless friend is drifting away from our group....that really pisses me off...she's so obvious about it...she's a hypocrite cause she hates annie for doing the same thing a year ago...took alot faster then i would've thought...i mean it took annie a whole year and it's only taken the nameless one a couple of months...well, random intervals throughout the year she drifted but then got closer...oh well...that's growing up for ya...she doesn't even know vickie's moving...pathetic...

2002-06-11T19:53:00.000-10:00

2002-06-09T11:52:00.000-10:00

I GET TO GO TO HAPA'S!!! yay! happyhappyjoyjoy

2002-06-08T19:18:00.000-10:00

DOES ANYONE OUT THERE IN NET-LAND READ THIS? if so, please e-mail me (bindi_pearl@yahoo.com). sorry but i feel really worthless/unloved/etc. right now....

2002-06-08T19:07:00.000-10:00

so.....i might go to hapa's tomorrow if i can get a ride....probably won't go anyway cause something will come up....nothing is happening....boring boring bored....

2002-06-06T17:42:00.000-10:00

so, on monday was Kelsea's party....it was really fun. won't really get into details or whatever, too lazy, but it was fun, like i said. but victoria and i got there two hours early (or something like that) and talked for a while. SHE'S MOVING TO FREAKIN NEW JERSEY! dude, seabury will not be that same w/o her.

so...mom & dad got into another little stupid fight again (about the stock market, what a surprise) and ariell is sick or something....really boring day...

2002-06-06T17:04:00.000-10:00

I was thinking today about the guy i like(d). oh shit, I think i may be in love with him...
how do you know if you're in love w/ someone? do you just know?
man, i really need to see him, it's wierd, cause i need to make sure he wasn't just a figment of my imagination...

if i had told him i liked him, like i'd planned, i wouldn't be like this...but it's kinda hard to tell a guy you like him when he's going out w/ someone else.
not that i was going to ask him out or see if he liked me back, i just want to let him know anyways cause i really don't give a sh*t if he likes me or not...

2002-05-27T19:44:00.000-10:00

so, first ever blog, so i will give some background info:

name=pearl
age=14
according to the spark.com i am a=dreamer
zodiac sign=sagittarius
favorite colors (in order)=green,black,blue,purple
favorite tv shows=simpsons, saturday night live, whose line is it anyway, dark angel
hair=black (i got it professionally cut today, so it's really really short, but i guess it looks okay)
eyes=green (duh)
skin=tan
nose=soon to be pierced (this wednesday!!)
personality=quiet, a bit too shy/self-conscience yet can be assertive, a bit sad by nature, can be funny, smart, trustworthy, nice and apparently i give good advice
psychological problems=none, but i sometimes see a therapist (more about that later if anyone is interested...)

so, that's all i want to write right now because i have better things to do...